Personal Blog entries
I was raised Catholic by my parents. Went to Chalolic school till the 3rd grade. While I went to church I would not say I was overly faithful or religious. It was just like I was going through the motions. Never really examined my thinking on God, Jesus, or my faith.
I got married young at 21. Had three daughters. Went on trying to raise and feed my family. When I was 30 years my mother passed away from cancer at 52. I began questioning everything. My world was falling apart. My career was non-existent. My mother just died. I felt alone and lost. As result, my marriage started to fall apart. Standard marriage counseling did not work. Seeking some spiritual guidance I went to a priest to discuss a possible divorce. He told me that divorce is the one sin God cannot forgive. That made no sense if I killed her that could be forgiven, but divorce no. I totally walked away from what little faith I had. Ultimately got divorced and I spent the next years in self-indulgence and self-seeking lifestyle.
As result, my life continued to spiral out of control. I was at a point where the pain was so great and the pressures were crushing me. As stated I have three daughters. I don't think they will ever know how much they were are and are loved by me.
One day while driving to go visit my children. I was in tears while driving. I never heard voices but I had thoughts that were clearly not from me due to the state of mind I was in. A fleeting thought entered my mind “suicide”. Just drive the car into a telephone and your pain would end. Then a thought in the back of my mind did not seem to to be mine came to me. “Yes, I want you to die.” My immediate reaction was I really don't want to die I just can't take the pain anymore. The next foreign thought I had, “You have tried it your way all your life and look were it has gotten you. Why not try it My way. Die to your ways and try mine.” It was a transformative moment. I had nothing more to lose. My life was a mess and I could really make it any worse. I prayed and committed my life to Jesus and to try and follow more closely.
I started to attend church again. I did not care about the denomination I chose a Bible-based Church. The next step was to get baptized and publicly profess my faith. . Life seems to settle down. While my sins still had consequences I felt like I was headed in the right direction.
I met my wife Vicky. I did ultimately remarried. She had two boys and was also divorced. We started our journey. She was also raised Catholic and it was hard for her to leave the Catholic Church. We ultimately settled on a church led by a Pastor named Tim Chicola. She was Baptized there.
The next phase of growth occurred during the Promise Keepers era. Inspired by their message of back door entries to the church I started with my wife a ministry that taught computer skills to people. The message at the end of the 8 eight week program was that computers were confusing when you first started and now they make sense. So it is with the Word of God spend some time studying and listening to good sources and it will also begin to make sense. We did this for several years. We saw some amazing things.
A few years later I read the book Case for Christ By Lee Stroble. Became very inspired by this book and my faith began to deepen. Little did I know God was preparing me. I am a 9-11 survivor. In Tower 1 at 8:30 on 9-11. That story can be read here. God took us on a journey that lasted ten years and had severe financial consequences. That story is discussed in this video.
It would be ten plus years before my passion for apologetics was reset. It started with a movie God’s Not Dead 2. Jim Warner Wallace was on the stand and defended Christianity from a completely evidential perspective I wanted to do that. I got his book. Went to his website pleaseconviceme.com. Downloaded his podcasts, over a hundred, and began listening to them over and over.
I wanted more, I started listening to others including Frank Turek, Greg Kukhle, and many others. Started to take classes at Reason to Believe, RZIM, Cross-examined and others. These resources are covered in my apologetic resume. I believe this is my next step in my walk and to continue to be bold in my faith. I look forward to this adventure.
Author - Guy Yasika
Looking to profess my faith to anyone that will listen.